hello(:
i'm happy happy girl!hawhaw.and i hope to stay this way.when slacking with shan,dave and pz yesterday.and yeah.i was super happy.talked to her yesterday and today(: i've been uber happy.and i want to for a long long time.i hate to sulk.it isnt good fo health.she said wth and i melt on the spot.and i cant wait to see her.its just the way she says it.ahhh!see.i'm going nuts again.i think i'm too soft with her.eh i gave in many times already la.and i hope that i'll start all over again.yay!a brand new start(: and i'm sure that everything will be fine.and we'll be just like before(: hawhaw.i'm feeling great today.haha.i shall stop here.till the next time(:







; I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand.

drive for all time-westlife

It's easy to fool around it's harder to keep the faith
But I wanna settle down no matter what it takes
If I ever break your heart if I ever do you wrong
I hope I never give you cause to doubt where you belong
If a million miles were between us
I'd want you to know
If I had to drive all day, take that flight
Across this ocean
I'm coming home tonight
Don't let it play on your mind
Cause my devotion is for all time
Some people want it all some only want the fun
But I'm here to let you know that I'm all about the love
Some people let it show some people wait too long
Well I'm gonna tell you now that you're always number one
If a million miles were between us
I'd want you to know
If I had to drive all day, take that flight
Across this ocean I'm coming home tonight
Don't let it play on your mind
Cause my devotion is for all time
If I had to drive all day, take that flight
Across this ocean I'm coming home tonight
Don't let it play on your mind
Cause my devotion is for all time (:

hello(:
syf was damn dead yesterday.i guess my mood was shit la.some fucking apnn was grouped at one spot and damn stink and show attitude lor!wth.chicken backside la!and i guess smething else had to spoil my mood.bahh!whatever.i'm not bothered anymore.i'm not going to let some tiny shit bring me down.shan wants me to smile more.eh when you mix around with too may irritating saddist,how to smile?haiyer.many stuff are bothering me.what worries me even more is the coming SA!wahlao.i must pass accounts,history,ss,english,malay,and comb science.RARRH!means lesser time for fun and get my ass to work): damn.its for a few weeks only anyways.then june,can SLACK SLACK SLACK!hawhaw.bahh.i wish i didnt hear anything it from w.haiyer.its her choice so i've got nothing to lose right?oh wth.i dont want to be upset anymore.i must smile more!
after syf thing yesterday me,judy,audrey and bernice wanted to take 75 together.me and judy left bernice and audrey at the bustop for awhile then went to long john.and we happily talked and forgot abput the poor 2.hawhaw.my trip in 75 was uber fun please.we were havoc i tell you.not that i notice mr lau was in the bus.here's my advice,never stand opposite audrey wong in the bus.she play kungfu fighting each time the bus jerks.and who suffer?me and judy's toes.hawhaw.then she cha cha also la.my kungfu fighting partner is WAHLAO!now i'm aching from head to toe.bahh!we have to take 75 again one day.i didnt go to school today!i sprained my ankle and it hurts super badly): i triped over th corner of my bed.wah piang!till the next time(:




;the thoughts in my head,when we danced and we sang and we laughed all night.

if your hearts not in it-westlife(:


I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
And there's nothing that I can do
To stop me losing you
I can't make you change your mind
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

hello(:
gosh.this week is damn RARRRH!so asshole.i cant keep lying to myself la.i dont feel okay la.i have this urge to press my blade on my hand and SLASH!but i dont see the point of doing that.its so passe for me.not like i can change anything that happened right.you shouldnt have made me believe.and at least tell me la.you wasted so much of my time.and it hurts even more to hear it from someone else): i beg you to make me hate you.i've tried so hard to.and i wanted to give up as a friend.you leave me with no choice.you broke your promise.so wht do you expect me to do?i've tried giving up,and stay far away.i'm sorry for whatever that happened.and i'll take the blame.i thank you for EVERYTHING.






;gone are the tears that i've cried.

hello(:
i guess i've been OKAY.yeah mann.i've done something bad but wth.its like a daily routine for me.seeing blood is fascinating i tell you.i'm not foolish or anything.nor am i saddist.i'm super hell of shits.RARRRH!so annoying mann.haiyer.and that person too!that 46(: i've been giving people blind codes.hawhaw.46 is getting me damn confused and stuff.wth la.yes?no?dont know?wahlao!i hate being in this situation la.somethings are better left unsaid.sigh): see!here i go again!wahpiang.i'm stuck to close to you by taufik(: its fucking WAH!heh.dave told me the next time i breakdown,i must go beside a tree.so asshole la.i've been having serious breakdowns this whole week.and today's the 13th.rarrh!i always hate the 13 of every month.bad things happen.REAL bad things.haiyer.hawhaw.shall stop here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUA SIHUI!(:


;but losing you has forced me to learn.

hello(:
gosh.i'm super annoyed.some people are so screwed please.i guess she cant find any other people to accuse la.HELLO!you guys are attached right?might as well just face it and dont go blaming me!so ass please.i think pz is super la!gosh.you fall into the slightest flirtation.so despo mann.rarrh!whatever la.i cant be bothered to entertain your fucking nonsense.show some intelligence mann!eh you damn smart right?you excel this excel that.basic sense never excel ar?dont make sense la.i think i was super blind.gosh.i can seriously puke right now.you're my biggest mistake la.omg.i shant talk about that asshole anymore.as you said,the next time i see you,you dont know me and i dont know you.you good!i dont give a damn la.hawhaw.
and theres some other people.sigh.she's getting me confused.that person isnt what i thought she is!gosh.then whats with the things she said?whatever she showed me?i held on for so long.at least have the courtesy to tell me la.i waited for so long,and suddenly BOOM!it all falls to pieces.sigh.i'm going to pretend that i never knew your secret,and that we were just like before.its hard for me to say that i'll get over it and move on.coz i know i wont.the things you said to me just wont go away.just like my to be gone 10166 wish):

keshia,you've screwed my life enough.i hope you fall into coma one day and be stupid for the rest of your life.australia wont be your option.you dont know me and i so dont know you.HAWHAW.i'm totally cool with that(: oh and good luck to you and anailuJ.gosh.how lame can you get mann.






;i can talk all night just to hear you breathe.

hello):
i didnt go to school today.had diarrhoea la.early in the morning la!so cb mann.and my ahem hurts.rarrrh!okay.i guess that isnt the only thing thats upsetting me.gosh.i cant stand it.this thing with ____ is messing with my brain.sucks la.sigh.i really dont know what to do.my brain is dead.and i'm super depressed.whatever la.you make me doubt you so much.dont come blaming me in the end.i've tried my best la.till the next time(:









;if your heart's not in it for real,please dont try to fake what you dont feel.

hello(:
its been years since i last posted.hawhaw.i guess not many interesting things happened.yeah.i wasnt talking to ___ for many days.which is really upsetting and stuff.i've made up my mind!i'm not going to give up on ____!i promise i wont.if ____ tells me to,then i promise that i will.hawhaw.see how nice i am.coz it was my fault and stuff.so i guess my 10166 fantasy wont happen.): that just sucks.but its for the best.i dont want to get hurt. and i dont want ____ to get hurt too.that'll just hurt me even more.and i think that ____ feelings are not there.as you said "why i've been wasting my time on someone who wont even care about me."
yeah.even though i've tried my best to give you what you need.i'll try and ty again.coz i dont plan to give up.(: not on you.i'm off now.till the next time(:





;sorry seems to be th hardest word.

hello(:
went theme park yesterday.gosh.thats the most boring place i've went my whole life.bahh!waste money lor.then had barbeque after that.i was baby sitting!lavigne is damn cute la!hawhaw.rachel too!hwhaw.okay.i'm going nuts now!i'm watching north shore okay!i'm going to swooooon soon.hawhaw.i'm off now!till the next time(:









;until my dying day.

hello(:
today was ptc.and my aunty came at like 6.30?so judy liling wanling and i went to tiong.sat at kfc.wanling ate.then went home.liling went walking with qianru.then me and judy talked about many many suff.hawhaw.okay.it was a nice talk.rather than stone and listen to radio then cry right!after that we went to roof top(: my favourite hang out okay!we talked laughed.haiyer.my depression periods.hawhaw.liling went off.then me and judy went back to school at 5.30,sat with ezaty and someone.laughed even more.and me and ezaty actually hate ___!can you believe it?i thought ezaty was okay with her.so i go with the flow lor.hoho.so we actually thought of the same thing la.so nuts please.then it was time for ptc.):
i hate mdm lim forever and ever.AMEN.i dont like her lor.shuddup la you!neh neh pok can!haiyer.i thlow you in le lustbin len you know ar!go fly fly the cheeeken!hawhaw.so today was surprisingly great(: till the next time(:



;now things just aint the same and i'm wishing that you were still here.

hello(:
today was sad,depresing,then FUN.hawhaw.really!funnaye mann.it was damn depressing for me and liling): bahh!wth.after school went to tiong with char,karen and liling.then we sat at macs.laugh and laugh.walk around.laugh even more.hawhaw.then judy joined us at macs.damn spas please.LAUGH LAUGH non stop mann.we played with balloons,laugh,took pictures.damn alot lor.then we played hide and seek(: damn fun la.i hid at tom and stefanie,ero lingerie shop,then courts(:
courts was the longest.together with judy and karen.char seek-ed.hawhaw.damn funnaye mann.then we played dare or dare with some sec2.piang.we damn loser la.i can just laugh.the chilli sauce,balloon and paper(: thats all we dared on.hawhaw.then went home.i shant say anything else.coz i did something bad today):
till the next time(:




;i have to face the TRUTH right now.

hello(:
today was okay la.had PE(: then we run and run.hawhaw.nice nice!everything was going smooth till recess.sigh.brokedown many times today.in school,tiong,home was the worst.): i so need help.i hate it so much la.liling has to cheer up too(: we're on the same boat lor.haiyer.i shouldnt have told her.it was a big mistake.my biggest mistake was being super blind and extremely stupid.yeah.so both sides lose.especially on my side.bahhh!i hate this school.i want to shift.i want to runaway from everyone.rarrrh!gosh.i'm suppose to love fridays.now i'm hating it.): all thanks to ____!can this get any worse.ohh mann.whatever please.RARRRH!






;i'm twisted coz one side of me is telling me that i need to move on.on the other side i want to breakdown and cry.

hello(:
i'm bored.hawhaw.i so want a new wallet please.something like chars'.damn nice to use okay.karen is stoning beside me.and creating herself a blog.and ezaty is fighting with the printer.she's inserting and inserting the same PAPER again and again.hawhaw.okay.i'm going to swoon soon.i'm listening to patrizio(:
okay.till later(:






;parla la piu piano.

you make me go thinking,go worrying,go crying everytime i'm with you.and everytime i'm not.
you make me tear when you're with me.
you make me wonder when you're far.
so with or without you.
makes no little difference.









;dont go faking it.

hello(:
first day wasnt too bad.at all!heh.yeah.no mood swings.and i hope not for like the other weeks ahead.okay.so today was great(: hawhaw.i came early today!like for the first time without cabbing la.yay!went to tiong with liling,judy and karen today.liling left with her brother,judy left for sentosa,me and karen decided to walk around tiong and stuff.and eunice calls me a stalker!please lor.then me and karen really stalked her la!karen was broke.i wasnt la.but i only wanted to use my coins.so we had to borrow 50 cents from char!hoho.char came from town to tiong to meet us.then we went to macs.and we exchanged the thank you cards with chars' friends.damn retarded la.then me and karen took the train and talked about things.damn depressing mann.she's could be the only one in school that can understand me.haha.my daughty and i are on the same boat(: what to say right.like mother like daughter.hawhaw.hilarious please.then in the train i saw this ah pek.he dig his nose and wipe at the seat.yuckks please.i so want to puke mann.i'm so not going to touch the train anymore.haiyer.
people people!WATCH NORTH SHORE!damn nice okay!just keep staring at frankie and jason,and you'll fall in love with those two la!(:



;scrumdidilyumptious!

hello(:
i went to tampines with jar to meet my aunt.and i saw SOME numbers that made me smile at myself la!heh.jar so knows why i was smiling la.but she had to rub it in.like whatever please.hoho.then stayed at her place.hawhaw.damn scandalous and stuff!i shant say anything mann.haha.
then yesterday was the 18th!yayness please.haha.me and my mum walked the stretch from ps to heeren.we did some shopping and stuff.piang.my leg can break mann.and theres like so totally nowhere to sit.then we sat for awhile at the bustop.then met my mums' friends at heeren.ate at marche.gosh.i ate cheese sausage and rosti!my stomach can just burst mann.i enjoyed the bread though.hawhaw.and i went to the zoo today!i love the cats country part(: so preetaye please.haiyer.ben and jerry's are superr sinful lor.hawhaw.and now my fingers are getting numb.till the next time(:




;it was just a slight flirtation.

hello(:
okay.today wasnt so bad la.i went for dinner with my papa and my SUNSHINE(: hoho.my rascalistic brother.we went long john.tsk.damn lame la okay.long john's suppose to cater the best FISH fillets.but the chicken taste so much better please.way way better.hoho.funnaye la.my sunshine was uber cute today!i took pictures of us.haha.but i'm scared to upload.i so dont want it to go haywire like the old one.RARRH!i feel moronic mann.i so hope that next week will be alright.yeah.i hope that it wouldnt be as bad as this two weeks): it sucks like shit la.sigh.i shouldnt talk about it la.me and daughty are going to have a long looong talking,screaming,crying session next week(: the 3 in1!ohh the fun.i'm so looking forward to it.the other day i thought i saw SOME car plate number.and i smiled to myself.but then i saw it clearly and i began to tear.the last number was wrong): i so cant get her off my head.questions keep popping up in my fucking head.and i get no answers!so annoying please.and when i start to think about it,i feel like a vampire la.i want to bite myself!i know i sound crazy la.but hello!i'm at home with my sunshine and my maid?just the wrong people to talk to la.rarrh!whatever please.oh god please make next week and the rest of the weeks ahead so so so much better than my total major blues weeks!coz i cant stand it any longer): sigh.
okay.forget it.lets talk about my skin!i'm tan okay!i can see lines on my back!yayness!my tans are even.thanks to my banana boat dark tanning oil(: hoho.i'm promoting mann!okay.my fingers are fucking painful.so till the next time(:

"i've got MY SUNSHINE on a cloudy day." (:




;we're history.and yet still a misery.

hello(:
rarrh!here i go again.i always promise myself things and never do it.fuckk la.i promised that i wont talk to ____ when i see her.but yet i did!how dumb can i be mann.i'm such a failure in everything i do.gosh.why did YOU even create someone like me.i hate almost everything that relates to my life.i hate being called sadist.im so not okay.its just the wrong word mann.maybe self inflicting.but wth.i dont fucking care la.i think my life is so against me.life takes away the people you love.life makes you cry.and i fucking hell dont appreciate it la.i hope one day whilst crossing the road a bus or whatever comes out from nowhere and crash me.that'll be like the happiest day of my ending life.okay.i'm crapping too much.yuckk mann.being in total major blues sucks okay.shitness.





;so you take the smiles from all of our years and i'll take the tears.

I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE.
I HATE ME.
I HATE YOU.
I HATE 060306.
I HATE PHONEYS.
I HATE LIES.
I HATE ALMOST EVERYTHING!


YOU should really end my life now.coz i seriously dont appreciate it.come and stab me,shoot me,just fucking kill me.



;would you even care.